Dilemma

The black and whites..

I am scared of both..

The white says live..

The black says fear...

Asking question and loosing answers..

Issues that are lurking..

I am the center..

How do I forgive myself..

To cause pain who have cared..

If I beg for forgiveness..

Mamma will you forgive..

A living failure still wants a chance in life..

I know I didn't make u proud..

But I tried every day and forgot to live.

The black and the white..

I am scared of both..

Cause one says fight..

The other says quit..

And it echoes both life & demise.