Long Lost..

The labyrinth of feelings is like ropes around my neck...

The more you try to take out each strand...

The more it feels like another knot..

I try to breathe and find some love...

But love and hate and trust are all muddled up...

Red and blue are not distinct any more...

All of them have merged in black..

Look there under my skin...

My heart is covered under a cold hard rock..

I wanted to hide that it beats..

I wanted to hide that it loved...

I wanted to hide all old wounds..

Of each lost battle I counted so far..

Mother said, be strong...

Father said, be my son!

Husband said you aren't feminine enough...

And I tried to look for myself amidst all of that...

You peeped through the mess and looked for love...

But I am long lost, darling I am long lost....